setelah hampir 5 bulan dekat uitm lendu. i've finally found someone i love. yes i do tell u guys in twitter yg aku nak cuba pecahkan rekod diri sndiri utk kekalkan status single sampai sem 3. but i didn't tell em that i will not fall in love. gila la kan kalau tak boleh jatuh cinta. semua ni lumrah so i can't force myself to stop loving someone who calls 'a boy'. unless i'm a lesbiano :) huhu. so disebabkan aku masih berada di jalan yg lurus dan benar so aku mmg aku akan jatuh cinta dgn seorang lelaki. At first, mmg aku tak suka gila dkt mamat. bukan la gila sgt. cuma tak suka. senang cita he's not my type. even my friends pun ramai yg tak suka aku dgn dia. he seems really bad. but i look him in different way. i just fond he is very special then the other man i knw. he is responsible, caring, garang, cool, and ego! haha. so i just go on my life mcm biasa. almost everyday kitorang dkt uitm. mmg susah nk elak dri berjumpa dgn dia. but i act cool. mcm takda apa2. until laa, i start telling him i like him. not the way yg mcm tak malu punya confession tu. kami IM and mungkin dia boleh nmpak kot aku suka dia, and lastly, dia tnya. and i just admit it. but i didn't expect him to like me back. tgk2 he said he do feel the same thing like i did. mmg time tu nk pengsan semua ada laa. tktau nak happy ke apa. but seriusly, i still have a doubt on him. i just feel like ' takkan dia suka aku kot' u knw wht i mean right. i'm not like the other girls yg cntik. comel, kurus and all those beautiful words. so aku masih berhati-hati. i don't put full hope on him and even i don't give the whole heart to him. in case, kalau dia cuba nk mainkan aku. i still have a pieces of me. and i think i still can continue my life without him. it still pretty hard to me. but at least i still can carry on with my life. the different is i'm not with him. sometimes, aku harus mengaku yg betapa susahnya nak faham seorang hamba Allah yg berjantina LELAKI ni. dia nak, tapi nmpak mcm tknk. dia ckp dia jealous bila kita ada crush. but dia boleh menggedik dgn org lain. dia ckp dia syg kita, but dia tak tunjuk. actually, MAN is much more complicated than WOMAN ! sila mengaku itu. hehe :)
TO HIM that I LOVE :
Thanks sbb bg i peluang utk rsa gembira walaupun utk seketika.
seriusly, i happy dgn u. even everyday, we just talk about the same topic.
hari2 tnya 'u dah mkn?' 'u sihat?' 'u tak keluar?' yeah the same question everyday but itu lngsung tak membuat i boring dgn u. in fact, i'm happy. dan even every night kita gadoh. ada je bnda nak di gadukh kan. sumtimes, smua tu perkara kecik je. tapi i still happy.
it brings me a joy when i'm with u.
Dear, i ptut mngaku i mmg jeaous bila u tweet someone sweet gilo babi rather than me. lepas confession tu. kita dh jarang tweet kan. i noticed that. tapi i just ignore it. as long as u happy. i'm happy for u :) and anyway, please do tell me if your feeling towards me have change. i let u go :')
